Although my walk with my hiking buddy was disappointing because it was not a good knee day, it was great to see her and she treated me with many hiking stories that only help me to focus on a fast recovery.
I called the surgeon office today since I didn't know at what time I have to check-in the hospital tomorrow morning.
5:15 a.m. is my appointment but unlike last time I am not the first patient so I could be there for a while. I had a hard time to get more information from the woman who schedules the surgeries but she hinted at an early afternoon dismissal.
So perhaps a good book to keep me busy all morning is a good idea although I doubt I will be able to focus much.
I am torn between hope and lack of conviction. I was more upbeat in January. I had no expectation and thus was less scared and more trustful. I was also so exhausted to walk with the brace that I was willing to do anything to be back to normal. In between, although I am not who I was, I have learned to live with less agility and pain. It is scary to return to surgery and not knowing how bad it will be. I expect a set back of some sort and in my good days I think it will be quick to regain flexion and extension of my knee. But in my bad days, I doubt it can happen since I have been deprived of it for seven months now.
So I am preparing myself for a mix of emotions and results and hope to post better comments soon.
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